Well I made it down to San Diego.  You know the town that means a whale’s vagina.  The land of Mr. Burgandy.  Good times to be had by all here, if that movie said anything.  After all I live in San Francisco and we have the Rock and Groove to go by.

I have to say Amtrak is the worst way to travel in this country.  I’m sure Greyhound is worse, but I haven’t taken one of those so I can’t really bitch too much about that.  I got thrown on the wrong train.  My tickets were written by hand so getting anywhere on that damn system was a complete cluster fuck.  I did get to meet some cool people (you can see my pictures on FaceBook).  It was just a huge pain in the ass.  Cussing gets you kicked off apparently, fuck that noise.

So now I’m down in San Diego.  It’s hot as hell here, and I can see a lot of boredom coming my way during the days.  It’s so quiet in this neighborhood, ironically, that sleep is probably going to be difficult.  At least I sleep in an UFO.  Yes that’s right a mother fucking UFO.  I can now say I have lived in some of the strangest places that anyone will ever deal with.

Break ups are, not the right word but the first that comes to mind, funny. Really I should be thinking provoking and ironic. You start to look back at a lot of things and wonder what cold have been done differently. What wasn’t going to change about you or the other person. I started to wonder all sorts of things and had various questions ping ponging in my mind since this past Thursday and the weeks before. It’s taken me a long time to sort through some things. Many I haven’t come to any conclusions on, some I think I’m nearing or am there.

First off I’m in a lot of pain mentally and in my heart. Of course this is going to happen when the person you truly, or though so, loved leaves to go on their own adventures without you. Of course after this comes acceptance. Which is probably one of the hardest things to get to. Finally getting to the next stage and maybe being friends again, maybe not in some of my cases.

A lot of my questions keep coming and going. When they pop up I start to look inside to see what’s happening. At times it scares me, others it makes perfect sense. Though this isn’t the entire purpose for writing right now.

I’d like to say that the things I’m doing now I would have if my Texas Rose hadn’t left. Hadn’t moved to Utah. I’d like to say that but I’d be lying. I’d still be in the same spot I was because in all honesty I was too comfortable with what I had. I enjoyed the security we had in the little life we had carved out for ourselves. I loved that I wasn’t moving every few months. I loved holding her every night when we were together. That’s not enough when it comes down to everything.

Since she left I have changed my diet. I’m trying to lose a little bit of weight from drinking so heavily over the past few years. It has gotten a little out of hand. I’ve started exercising more because I want to get in shape. I’m only taking baby steps right now because you really need to crawl before you can run full throttle. I’m out of shape. I drink and smoke too much. At least the drugs aren’t very prevalent anymore.

So I’m doing good for myself physically. I’m eating better. I’m drinking more water. I’ve started to run, use a weighted jump rope, sit ups and push ups. It’s really all that I can do while being of no fixed address again in my life. Still these are baby steps and hopefully I will be in better shape by the time I get back to San Francisco in August.

I’ve even begun drinking less. I’ve only had four beers when going out at night anywhere. Alternating with water or a redbull if I’m tired like I am a good deal of the time due to lack of sleep. I’m really not ready to abstain for a month or more just yet, but I am getting there and get there I shall in a few week’s time. That I feel will bring along a lot of boredom for me since I really have nothing much to do other than think and work on improving my body and my mind.

Yesterday I paid my first fifty dollar gas bill to fill up my piece of shit Saturn.  Fifty dollars to fill up a four cylinder car?  That’s fucking insane.  Then again, gas prices jumped from $4.05 to $4.39 over night.  Yeah gas is getting expensive.  It’s getting crazy.  I can’t imagine actually relying on a car to get to and from work these days.  As a matter of fact I’m gonna get rid of mine again and go back to commuting with the BART and my skate board to and from work.

That’s not really what I’m writing about, even though it sucks, but rather mass transit.  Not public transportation which is generally decent in cities, but traveling and places that don’t have it. In news of the obvious air line fees are sky rocketting.  Yeah saw that coming with the price of jet fuel increasing and so many of them ending up in the red, plus charging extra just to travel with luggage.  I mean come on, you go on vacation, you gotta take luggage right?  Why doesn’t America have a valid alternative with high speed rail?  Yeah I can get around the west coast decently, but it’s still slow but cheaper and uses less fossil fuels.

If we’d only get off our asses and go the European route on this.  We would save energy, we would save fossil fuels and all in all it would be cheaper in the long run.  Of course our energy policy has been so fucked up for so long that it’d be a miracle to even get something like this done today.

Now we come to another story that is absolutely assnine.  People would rather cut other costs out of their lives than give up their 10 mile per gallon H2?  Are you fucking kidding me?  Vehicles like this are a major part of the god damn problem people.  Auggie Mathis you are a fucking idiot for saying what you did in that article.  You own how many of them?  You spend how much on gas polluting our world?  Then again this is in Texas.  Makes perfect fucking sense.

Over at IGN Comics theres an interview with Fred Van Lente that perked my interest.  Of course I’m a huge fan of Robert Kirkman’s runs on Marvel Zombies, as well as his "The Walking Dead," so when seeing the image to the right I had to click it.  Of course I didn’t know that it was Fred Van Lente and not Robert Kirkman doing the interview.  So my hopes fell pretty dramatically at first.

In all honesty a third run of Marvel Zombies could be good.  It could also be absolutely god awful.  I don’t think this is going to be a sequel really.  After all, the heroes mentioned, it sounds like it’s going to take place during the same time period as Marvel Zombies 2 when the "Galactus" are out in space in search for more food.

I’ll probably pick this up since I’ve already read everything dealing with Marvel Zombies.  I don’t know how keen I am to have it in the main 616 universe though.

One thing I plan on doing after I get my new place is to get my "72" hour kit going.  Of course it’ll probably containt more than 72 hours as I also need to replenish my survival gear for hunting trips later this year.  Of course part of this means I need to have water and food stocked up that I won’t touch and can survive just about anything.

By way of Gizmodo the best canned food ever has been found.  Yes that’s right canned bacon.  Can you imagine being the only person in your neighborhood having "fresh" bacon every morning while your neighbors have just pork and beans and cold condensed soups?  They’d be jealous of you.  The smell of bacon wafting through the hallways on your little camping stove in the kitchen?

I must get a case of this.  It’ll be great for camping trips.  Pack a can and have bacon for me and the others every day!  Mmmmm, bacon.

This just in!  Clinton is going to concede to Obama for the Democratic party presidential nomination.  That only took forever and a year.  I wasn’t going to vote for her, or McCain, if she was the winner.  I would have probably tossed my vote away to Ron Paul.  Now we really have a good chance at stopping 12 years of Republican control.

I honestly can’t tell you how happy I am about this.  Obama is definitely the clear winner for your vote.  His policies on everything just make more sense.  Not a stop gap solution to the issues plaguing America.

Odds are she’ll be on the bill for vice president just to keep her happy and to make her campaign just as hard for the presidential race between Obama and McCain.  Don’t waste your votes people.  Vote Obama in November.